Friday, March 22, 2013

God's love and Supremacy (FRIDA aka Freedom)

This is a true story.

Here I am waiting for my little sister to come over for the weekend, unaware of the devil’s plans. Frida texted me in the morning, asking what time I will be at home and if I can leave the keys with my neighbours. I went through the day and came back home waiting for her. About 6:01P.M, she asked me if I was at home and I told her yes. I knew then that she was on her way to come home.
It is about 7:20 p.m and she is not yet at home, and I thought, maybe she has changed her mind. So I went into the kitchen and washed the dirty dishes, and was thinking of just having some smokies with bread and nice hot tea.
Just as I was finishing the dishes, she came in at 7:35 p.m. She was sniffling and I thought she was just joking, but she just told me.
“Come join me lets thank the Lord.”
I knew right then and there that something horrible has happened. As I finished and was running out to meet her, all I could think about was her parents. She is a blessing to them as well as to me. Whatever happened, she is here and I am so grateful to God that I won’t have to bear the tears on her parent’s face.
As I sat down next to her on the couch, I found no words for the tears I saw on her face. She would not talk and I wasn’t sure what to do, apart from praying for her. So I prayed for whatever happened and for God to give her strength and courage.
When I was through, she looked up and God and said “Papa, I hope you dong hear that oohhhh.”
She stomped the floor and said “Satan with your long tail. That is why you were banished from heaven. You don’t have power and you try to show that you have power, when you have nothing. You will never be anything, but a low life. He who is in me is greater than he who is in the world.”

Then she began her story.

After she was dropped in Daystar, she crossed over and took a Lang’ata mat for Uhuru Gardens. After they passed Kenyatta market and were about to cross the second fly over where Riara University is found, a honk was blown from behind them. The driver continue to go into the road.

As she turned around to see what was happening, she saw a truck in full speed behind them, and cars were giving way in all directions. Their driver stepped on the accelerator and passed between all the other cars ahead of the truck. Everyone in the mat thought they were dead.

She turned quietly in her seat and thought of how people will be thinking “Frida is dead,” and only tears began to fall.

Out of no where, the truck just stopped. It had lost it’s breaks and cars were flying to the sides, giving open space. There was no car between them and the truck when it was going down the hill after them.
After the story, I wanted to burst out in tears, but she gave me no chance at all. She talked of God’s awesomeness and how weak Satan is, thinking he can match up to God.
“I thank you papa God. It’s not because I am too righteous, but because you are my father.”

Let us join hands in thanking God for the gift of life.
If you think your life is all together without Jesus, think again.
Thank him you were able to wake up today, and are able to go back to bed again without a scratch on your body.

Her closing prayer was “You are my beginning and end. Take my hand and never let me go. Even if I fall, don’t let go off my hand.”

I thank God for her faith.

Friday, March 1, 2013

The Joy of living for him

My happiest moment in life was when i finally came to understand what God wanted from me. I cannot clearly define when that moment was, but i think i had it all along, until finally, i had to tell myself, the moment was right.
Becoming a Christian is not the easiest moment in one's life. You are making a commitment, not to the one above, because he could still reach others without you. You are making a commitment to yourself, because you are willing to let others know the man who lives inside of you.

As Christians, how are we suppose to live our lives?

We all have ways of defining what Christianity should look like, and we have ways of judging those who do to comply to our perspectives. We thus brand them and think all kinds of things against them.
When God gave Joshua the commandments, he said in Joshua 1:8, "Do not let this book of the law depart from your mouth. Meditate on it, day and night so that you may be careful to do everything written in it. Then you will be prosperous and successful."
How much different is that statement from the one Jesus gave us in the new testament. Go sell all that you have and you shall gain perfection.

I came not from a rich family, but i became rich in him whom i gave up everything to follow. I stopped living for myself and began living for him who gave me the strength.
Everyday, i asked for Wisdom, knowledge and understanding as i grew. In my last four years of University, i have grown tremendously in my walk with God and my fellowship with him.

When i got into the most amazing relationship, i struggle much in balancing attention. I finally realized that i was not the one to balance that relationship, but God himself. I began praying for God's wisdom to be instilled in me as well as Sandy. We were both off on a difficult, yet amazing adventure, which can only be best defined by God. When we got ourselves into trouble over what is right in a relationship and what is not right, and we had no place to turn to, God was right there to instill his peace in us.
His wisdom and knowledge trickled down into our hearts and minds, so that our heart was one in listening to his voice.
When the morning comes, i wake up looking forward to meeting new people, letting God run his will through me. Mornings when i wake up tired and unable to do my devotions, I whisper a thank you prayer for making me see a new day and a good rest. If i am still tired and don't feel like waking up, i complain on that bed to him who can hear me, and i decide whether i will be moody or happy on that day.
If i am moody, then everyone around me will feel it. When i see the smiles on others' faces, then it gives me more joy than i had expected that day.
The joy of the Lord is explicable when you finally find it and it flows through your every move, touch, speech and walk. God is love and without his love in us, we are nothing but empty vessels that find other means in achieving temporary joy.
His love endures forever no matter the situation. It gives you the strength to wake up amused about life.
Let us love flow through you

Your Kidding right?

I have so many things that I can't seem to tear away from. They are my most adored and private collection, which if I didn't have self-restrain, I would buy a chest full of them. There's none other than my rings. I have a thing for rings, and whenever i pass on the road and see them displayed, i want one. This was something i developed in high school and it became my thing. If i had a larger collection, it would mean war if someone touched even one of them. Right now, i am so proud that i have reduced to only 3 rings on my fingers.
The other thing i adore is sports. I had a hard time accepting the fact that my knee was damage and i needed to give it a time out. For two good years, i ran around, played soccer, basketball, volleyball and jogging, on a torn miniscus and damaged ACL. That was call going against the norm and scared to let go of what my heart desired and loved most. 
Hey, I am not saying i did not have Jesus in me. I did have him all along, but i always said. He will fix it, for he has said, when you call on me, i will answer you. I didn't know the part i had to play in this.

"If you want to be perfect, go, sell your possessions and give to the poor, and you will have treasure in heaven. Then come, follow me." Matthew 19:21. 

My example may not be the best, but one thing i came to realize was that, The foundations of my faith were built on my belief and trust that God will make everything right. I refused to let go of sports. I continued playing, not for God, but to proof myself to Men and Ladies at school that i was a strong and unbreakable. I thought i had it all down and nobody could tell me anything. 
In my own world, i was perfect and needed nothing to be changed about me. I could survive this and come up on top like Destiny child says "I'm a survivor, i'm gonna make." I was superwoman, as my friends said. It gave me pride, self-reliance, and a big ego. 

That was my possession, which i feared letting go. No Kidding. I had to give that up so i could be perfect. 
What are some of the things you hold onto so tightly that you can't see in front of your nose? 
Let me guess. Your passion for popularity (known as image), your passion to get the most awesome job, your passion to compete, your passion to put others down, forget about the addiction to shoe shopping, bags, clothes, cars, a glorious house, furniture, insecurity and much more. 
How can you try to attend perfection when you are so stuck up with worries concerning these material things?
For me to achieve perfection, my body had to tell me it was enough. The superwoman that once feared nothing now fears her body. It has the power to stop her and intimidate her. I had to come to terms with my father. 
Psalm 11:3 "When the foundations are shaken, what can the righteous do?" I had to stop and give up everything to him who could set things straight. I knew i could not do things on my own anymore and the strength i possess could be thorn from me anytime. 
The things we Hold onto, are we going to carry them to our graves? Are they worth killing each other over? Are they worth decorating your house with? Not at all.

I don't even know what i am saying anymore. I think i should stop talking right now. These are my thoughts and how i feel. Will you really miss out on perfection, just because you value that thing you hold onto?